Gazing beyond boundaries. Moving beyond fears.

I like gazing at the big night sky, dotted with twinkling spots in random. Whenever i get a chance to just get my head lifted up, i felt the whole world had sort of transform into something else--- like i am in another space.

Suddenly, a surge of fear injected into me; that i shrink into mini-size in just a snap.

No doubt the sky is beautiful; the magnificence can be quite intimidating. A line of question always come hitting in my head, " Who am i now?". The fear, makes my want to cry. A fear of insecurity, because i can see not boundary in that dark, dark sky; as if i will be swallow by some kind of energy anytime. 

We all like to do things and live with limit, limiting and setting a certain boundaries and rules for ourselves. Because, by setting these limits, we feel secure and safe.

We see the end before we even start, we know how much we're going to fall even before the falling happens. Though playing games within the limits provides us a sense of securities, it can be very suffocating too.

Though looking at the dusky night sky does make me feel uncomfortable; but i still like to stare at it blankly. While i allow the darkness to engulf my world, understand that no matter how frightening; i am still part of the universe. 

That neither our mind nor our thought is us;
neither our body nor our emotion belong to us too.
There are like stars, that burns inside us by moments; sometimes so brightly that we lost our self even. 

That though seeing no boundaries and setting no limit may send us a huge surge of fear, we learn how to let our hands off and allow the nature to take it course--- accepting whatever comes to us. 

Because we want to see beyond the limits, we live in moments of taking our breaths away.

i still shudder a little when gazing up; but i still do it. This quiver actually inspires me--- that there are things more important than fear.