03 November 2014

Who's gonna solve your problems?

I'm back to my blog after a good while of enjoying my time juggling among traveling and music practices other than my yoga schedule.

I especially love approaching year end, that's when i would deliberately slow down my engine from my work and pre-occupy myself with the things i love to do. 

First of all, being able to put in more time for my own practice is already a great deal; that's not all :P---- I did make a quick hop over to Shanghai, just gonna beat myself up for not extending my stay! 



...and sneaked to Anilao for an awesome dive experience ( the people are just too nice!) 

I've been heading for music practices for an upcoming concert this end of November with NovoWinds, so excited for it.

Finally, my luggage is filling up for very look forward stay in Mysore, getting time off for self-practice & advancement is sure a luxury for any yoga teachers.

While swirling in the midst of a chaotic schedule for the past few months, i've been criss-crossing many different paths of people i met and insightful conversation exchanges.

Once my music conductor briefly mentioned this sentence during a practice:
" If you realized, we often get super lost during our rest bars. When we are playing, we hardly get lost. Please be extra attentive & be with us during your resting bars." ~ Xaven

I totally have to agree with him-- as we tend to depend the other playing instruments for the next entrance to play--- unless we are very very familiar with the piece, 99% chance of getting lost and get messed up!

So, we practically put our duty as an individual musician to the others.

What the conductor mentioned actually reminded me of the many students i've come across,
who constantly seeking different therapists, doctors and teachers over the years for solutions. ( and how some therapist literally was running away from them)

The issue lies in the refusal to claim responsibility of their own problems. Every health professional that they met, they will be ready to  throw their baggage off-- expecting others to solve problems created by them. 

All solutions sit in the problems. 

Only the creator of the mess will know how the best way to clean it. 

Umpteenth times of yoga practices, shows us that whatever happens in the practice, be it the many falls, the ups & downs of emotion roller coaster rides, the flow of the many thoughts, those distractions, injuries, bruises, heaviness.... its part of us.

To get pass all these with full acceptance is not easy, but that's the way to the next step of making peace and dissolution.

The acceptance to see ourselves through the lenses of those identities we refuse to look at--- takes a lot of courage.
And taking ownership of our duty of taking care of what should be done, is the start of work.

In music, we ground ourselves with the pules, no matter how crazily the melodies dance.

In yoga, we root ourselves with the breaths, no matter how our limitation is being challenged.

In life, we entrenched ourselves with our own truth, no matter how the lies from outside world sweet talk to us.