Equilibrium on duality.

Duality. We are all living by it.

In the case of being judgmental, too many. Almost automatically, so quickly what the mind tell us, we take it as the true. 

Think again, maybe not.

If we allow space for some questions, the judgmental statement will be shaken, may lost its ground and slide over to the other end. 

That's too a judgment.

Whatever situation that we arrive upon on, both personally or from others, we start to generate a quick self conversation of "good" & " bad".

We associate such words according to our personal experience and understanding; which may be in another case for the others. 

I'm originally has a very indecisive mind. Give me two choices, i can easily categorize as " like" or " don't like", " good" or "bad", " yes" or " no".

Give me more choices, i'll start to fiddle around that many options, and my self judging system will breakdown. And i'll start to ask many questions of elimination and so on... eventually, all options becomes neutral to me. 

We pass judgement everyday, so long there are choices we need to make, we judge. Even buying apples. While some people think dull skin apple is fresher, others says waxed and shiny ones are better.

No matter what, it is the truth at that time; until something else reveals.  

Behind all these haggling, there's one truth. 

Of course for me, i can easily pass judgements as if i'm drinking water. But i always falls on different  sides in different situations. Sometimes i like the morning rain when i don't have to teach any class; sometimes i don't like it when i've to be on the street. 

For this, i realize i'm not judging the rain as bad or good. 

I'm judging my experience at that time, and i'm the experiencer. 

Self- judgement doesn't makes my mood any better, if i allow it to swing to different point-- i fluctuate with it. Its just another form of re assurance, a matter of our insecurity.

By having constant judging, it makes us feel "correct" or " incorrect".
But so what? Why do we need to get affected by it? How much time we have been using to straddle between these two side?

Equilibrium. 

The point when we see things, people and events as it is. There's no positive and negative, not even neutral. Like a lemon is sour, there's nothing much to be picky about its sweetness. 

Learning to see through the layers of sheaths of ourselves, at the same time, we starts to understand the nature of a person. 

Hands off clean of dualities, we stand at the point of equilibrium as the pendulum keeps on swinging on its own. 

Yoga teaching is an easy job? Say it again.

Whoever that conveniently says yoga teaching is a stress-free and easy job, i'll mentally dong your head with my spatula. Sometimes this gets on my nerves...not always,  just sometimes.

The best part was when some make it worst with those few occasions they checking out the rates i'm charging each class and the number of classes i'm teaching, calculated my assumed salary of a yoga teacher.
And thanks for the conclusion with " Wow, you must be very rich with such an easy job!"

The bench mark of being a successful yoga teacher varies.

I'm generally not too concern with how many numbers of students i've taught; i'm more appreciative with how many student i'd actually helped. 

I've been in corporate life, though not too long, long enough for me to realize that's not my cup of tea. Been there, done that. 

Do understand my instant jump into this yoga wagon definitely has swirled me into endless uncertainties & insecurities. If you want to talk about stable income, CPF contribution, bonus & list of corporate enhancement--- i don't have any of them. 

Those yoga posters you see along the street, that glamorous, gracefulness & serenity... don't be silly... that's for advertisement purposes. Go into the studio, you'll see messed up hairdo, trembling muscles, distorted facial & sweaty bodies... not forgetting about the mixture of body smell. 

Yoga teaching, a glamorous job? Think again. 

The glamor probably happens only at the entering into the class & standing in front of the students.

- We ended our work day by mid-day, because we started our day when you're still snoozing in sweet dreams.

- Doing our practice is not a kind of luxurious hobby; its us taking lessons through self-practice. 

-Our private practice is actually a challenge we are lifting to explore our range of emotions actively. And like you, we are still in the process of learning to be a better person in difficult situation. 

- Touching and physical adjustments of the your bodies, with different mode of strength control, uses a lot of our energy. 

- While one side of our brain is generating the right vocabulary of verbal instructions, the other side of our brain is busy accessing and generating methods to help your aliments.

- Whatever words that comes out from our mouth and our head is not on the same time. Usually, we need the mind to be at least two steps ahead of what your ears received. 

- Though we are looking at one direction, but in fact, we have been trained to have a " third" eye implanted at the back of our head. So, whatever you do behind our back, we saw it. 

- All our senses ( except taste) has to operate fully to read you. By the sight of your facial expression, listening to your breathing, smelling your body scent and touching the reaction of your flesh-- we actually rapidly generate a brief report your problems. And quickly follow by approached to rectify them.

- And finally, the sweat on our skin and clothes, are a mixture sweats from you.

Inclusively of the above, i still like what i'm doing. Its never ever relax job, but the fact that i enjoy everything about it.... its worth my time and attention i put into it. 

Getting into the practice of yoga & getting into teaching of yoga--- are two separate matter. 

One who enjoy the practice, may not enjoy the teaching. 

One who wants to teach, has to be dedicated to the practice.  

I don't start teaching only when i'm in the field of yoga. Basically, i like teaching.. if i like the subject well enough. In school days, i've already given the opportunities to explore my skills of teaching---

my time in the music bands over 8 years or even teaching my classmates accounting subject.

Yoga just happened to be one of the subject that i'm intensely curious in, therefore scooping deeper into the subject. 

The magical moment during savasana.

Have you been into the state of that magical moment of stillness during your time in savasana?
This short period will happen only a solid focused practice is done before taking this rest.

When finally i reached the last pose, sweats droplets sliding down to hair ends & body soaking wet... i lay down comfortably flat on the mat.

Trying to catch every breath, as my body soften part by part after each exhalation, my heart beats taking its sweet time to slow down.... i closed my eyes. I was too tired anyway to think about any other stuff, just to allow my thoughts settle on the base of my mind.

I could still hear the clock ticking, the birds chirping repeatedly outside the window...
Soon, those surrounding sounds seems to move further and further away from me;
at the same time, i was moving closer and closer towards myself.
Its a stranger feeling--- i sort of then understand the phrase " moving inwards to yourself"... it felt this way.

Slowly, i was also moving away from the gentle flow of my breathes. It was getting more shallow then before... and finally, it ceased. Everything stops for a while, the emptiness that people had been talking about seems like this. The body and mind felt like hovering few centimeter above the ground. I guess i must have been holding my breath, but i felt no pressure at all... everything weightless.

This moment, happens only for that short while. Nothing had ever made me enter into this state other than a good savasana. The in between slot of awake and sleep.

And suddenly, i took a deep inhale, amazing feeling... that immediately reminded me of the burst of life, the appreciation of being alive, the light of hopes. That one inhalation, pulled me back to reality again.