Because... i was distracted.

Something occurred to me when my practice did not happen smoothly as expected, i started to doubt and question myself. The same primary series practice which i've been doing for quite a while, that i could not flick it out of my head; but for the last few weeks, i find it draggy to flow through it. Why?

I became i real blame s**t. I blamed that the drilling in the opposite void deck is too distracting, i blame that the cars along the street, i blamed the garang guni ( rag- and -bone man) should stop shouting for business, i blamed that my body is too heavy....
It was every time when i reach badha konasana Butterfly pose, i got really really distracted, and gave in to the struggle.
Once, i manage to get a quiet two hours slot for my practice; am alone at home, the windows are shut... everything should be quite fine. But no! after the same pose, i realized that the loudest distraction was my mind. Old memories did not only flow, they gushed out... and i watched how it successfully halted me to a stop.

I knew nobody was to blame for the distractions, but myself.
I was actually tired from the same old trick i trick myself into; so, i got off the mat, and went for a cold shower. I talked myself through... for whatever was appearing and happening. It sounds crazy, but i did.
Cold shower really works... try it:)!

This time, i did my practice while my sis was having her dinner. I could hear the clinking of the plates and chomping from her mouth. Hungrily yet peacefully, the practice was breezy that evening:)

Practicing yoga is like reading a worthy book, again and again. The story never change, but in every time you revisit those pages again, you learn something new, gain a different insights.

SunDay= Sunny + Day

When i was young, i always thought Sunday was the last day of the week, & Monday was the beginning of the week. Because i heard how the adults sighed with... " Oh Sunday's ending and Monday is coming..!"
I then realized that Sunday is the beginning of the week.
That sounds so much better, Sunny + Day = SunDay!

Years ago, i blew my Sunday away by tugging under the blanket, and get really lazy the whole day. Which... does made my Monday blues -...-

Have a great kick start in the first day of the week, a celebration of another on- coming week ahead! I spend my sunny time with a group of yogis; i really appreciate the effort they made to climb out of their morning lazy bone, and coming to learn something about themselves every week!

I've a friend said he Grow Fat on Sunday by eating, some exercise to get some fresh air, some catching up their sleep, some doing housework, some packing for short getaway to recharge.... It doesn't matter!
So long as.... the day Ended to Begin a better next!

Differentiate, not Separate.

The very first time when i heard this voice from a podcast, my ears were sort of attracted to it. Who is this man with such a nice voice... it's Deepak Chopra! The way he speaks makes me feels so at ease and grounded, a voice that'll get you want to listen to it more.

i was watching this interview on YouTube by Deepak Chopra, he mentioned " We differentiate, not Separate". He took the example of the function of our body DNA, which every cell is differentiated and allocated to play different roles to create a body; and any separation of the cells... a complete body would not have exists.

Many questions that i did not know i would ever inquiry appears. There are many events, ideas, people and things in our life we do not agree with, that does not runs in line with our own truth, that seems like they are functioning by themselves as a separate entity, that we never would want to deviate our own principle to join them, or having them to disturb us. But it doesn't work this way, living and non- living, every element and atom is responsible for an universe.

Our idea of wanting to separate and break away, is when cruelty and hatred starts; because we did not know how to differentiate. Rather, we draw a line and separate ourselves from those we could not agree with. And because we separate, we unconsciously behave hostility towards them.

Being able to differentiate, is learning to respect every one's presence in this whole space that we are sharing. There are times we're agreeable; eventually when we grow at a different pace, our thoughts have change, our behavior has change, our values are different, we live by different principles, because the truth we sees is not the same anymore.

We move away, from the past and travel to another space that allow us to grow. That doesn't mean we cut off and disregards the past circles. Respect, we learn how to respect different people who takes up  different role at a different time, in the different stage of life at their designated space. Take a zoom out view, we'll see that no matter where we're at, we're co- exist as part of the creation of the whole.